I think it's important that you know that you, not watching the games will benefit no one, but maybe yourself. You have no power, zero, none, nada over what happens if you watch a game. I'd never tell someone how to fan their team, but yours is one of the most bizarre I've ever seen. "I won't watch games live and then I won't watch them if they lose unless it's a slugfest". It's like being a huge fan of mystery books or movies but refusing to read or watch them until you've read the spoilers of whodunnit at the end. Doesn't sound very exciting to me.